Wednesday, March 17, 2010

I got to hold her!!! She is so, so sweet!!!!

I have my baby that you all prayed for - thank you all!! Thank you God. She is here! My St. Patrick's Day baby!!!

I just finished watching some of the video Myers took down the hall at the Cardiaic ICU. She is just as calm and as sweet as can be even with all the lights (which Lil said, with much concern upon seeing the bed Gwen would be in, would "scare Gwenyth").

They did take her right away for a spell, right after she was born. They took her into the room next door with a special window - and we could hear her crying for a little bit at first, and then Myers could watch as they did the standard cleaning hooked her sweet little belly button up to some tubing.

Then, they brought her to me, and carefully adjusted all the wires as they passed her to my arms. She started to cry as they passed her along and she settled the moment she was on me and heard my voice. I know it's totally impossible, but this little girls face, even with the eye drops, radiated such delight - delight in hearing her parents voices, delight (I swear a smile) when we mimicked her "talking" to us, and to see her eyes look over to Myers to find where his voice came from - she amazed me beyond words. You would never dream, from looking at her that anything at all could be wrong with her.

Myers went back to be with her, if they will allow, during the tests she will now undergo. There seems to be a chance my sweet, perfect, perfect-looking, little girl may have to have her surgery this week. I thought maybe since it was so late in the week, she wouldn't be scheduled 'till Monday. I suppose it is better than waiting - but now that I'm on the other side of her birth and can let my brain now take on what she faces next - I don't know just how I will walk forward from here. I want to swaddle her and take her home so bad it hurts. I want her to be okay....I want her to be more than okay. I don't want to loose her, I want her forever. Please God, bless this baby with all the strength in the world and the best surgeon in the world - please let her be fixed and be okay.


  1. OH, my dear, dear Laura! You have DONE IT!!! You hypnobirthed your baby into the world!!! You did something that SOOOO few women have ever done in such circumstances! God gave you tremendous, supernatural strength, and I am just in awe of how He has blessed you.....I'm reminded of the Magnificat, Mary's song: "Blessed is she who has believed that what the Lord has said to her will be accomplished!" and "My soul glorifies the Lord
    and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior,
    for he has been mindful
    of the humble state of his servant.
    From now on all generations will call me blessed,
    for the Mighty One has done great things for me—
    holy is his name.
    His mercy extends to those who fear him,
    from generation to generation.
    He has performed mighty deeds with his arm;
    he has scattered those who are proud in their inmost thoughts.
    He has brought down rulers from their thrones
    but has lifted up the humble.
    He has filled the hungry with good things
    but has sent the rich away empty.
    He has helped his servant Israel,
    remembering to be merciful
    to Abraham and his descendants forever,
    even as he said to our fathers."

    I'm praying with all my might (as did all our home group tonight) that God will continue to glorify Himself in Gwyneth's life, through the surgery and into her childhood and a powerful, inexhaustible way. Sleep peacefully, dear were part of a miracle! Praise God!!


  3. I write with tears in my eyes, so so grateful to hear that you were able to hold her! Praise the Lord! I prayed so hard for that one blessing.

    I know just from the little that Myers shared what an amazing vessel you've been through all of this for the Grace of God to your daughter. You did it! I am soso proud to have a shared a little in your journey. I wish I could have been there and witnessed it for myself.

    So many people are praying for you, rest in that!

  4. Praying and crying for you and your sweet, perfect baby girl. May you know peace that passes understanding. Sending much love to all four of you!

  5. Oh so sweet!! We're praying right along with you.

  6. Praise God. She is precious! We're praying for you.

  7. I am so glad that you got to hold Gwenyth. What a blessing to have that moment with her. I have been praying that God would give you a peace that passes all understanding as you go through this time. You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. I love you.


  8. Laura she is just beautiful - fearfully and wonderfully made. Like Elisa i have tears in my eyes now after reading your heart's thoughts. I'm praying that you will get to take her home forever sooner than you think. Rest in God's grace and know that He loves little Gwen even more than you do. Many thoughts and prayers,

  9. Oh, I'm so glad to read that you got to hold your precious little girl before they had to go do all the testing. May God have his hand on her, your family and the doctors who will be handling her care, until she's in your arms again. Surgery is a scary prospect, and it's really hard not to start thinking of all the "what ifs" but cast your cares upon Him. She is most definitely in His care.

  10. Laura, she is so beautiful. I love your post and honesty. I feel your pain and can prepare myself better with an understanding of what lies ahead. Congrats to you and Myers. He did a fantastic job with the updates! Hopefully they'll let him be with Gwen during the testing. Stay strong and a quick recovery to you. Tons of heart hugs!

  11. You are superwoman, and I am so amazed at you. Gwen probably was so calm because she knew, as much as she could know anything, that you had set everything up, as you put it a month ago, "to give her the best chance possible."

    Our prayers for you and your little girl will continue. JC and I both obsessively checked for updates yesterday, and we were in tears when we finally saw that sweet picture.

    I know that God will be with you as you walk forward into the next phase. I can't wait to welcome you & Myers & Lil & GWEN back to the 'burg, and to hold that little girl myself.

  12. I love knowing that your precious baby girl was in your arms yesterday. I am amazed by your strength as you gave her the delivery that you wanted her to have.

    We're praising God for her today!

  13. Hi Laura, Myers, Lillian and Baby Gwen...I am constantly thinking of you all and praying (and for your mom and Becca). She is so sweet and as you said, "perfect looking". It's true! I believe that everyone will be praying just as much if not more than before. But it is just so good to see her face and she does not look weak...she looks strong and pink and beautiful! Zeke, Rose, Gabe and myself are wishing we could be there so much! Give us a call if you get a chance. I don't want to call and disturb any time you get with her. We love you!

  14. praying and praising for the journey thus far!!! Much love!!

  15. Laura and Myers,
    We have been keeping up with you through Parks and through this blog.
    Prayers have been answered and you have been blessed with a beautiful daughter. God has spoken and a miracle has been performed.
    Thank you for your message of love and praise.
    We love you,


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